My Mental Health

I am strong enough to admit that I have Borderline Personality Disorder. But just because I have this illness does not mean that this defines me as a human being. Most people either do not know what BPD is or have a negative bias towards it, which is devastating. I just want people to understand the truth behind this disorder and to realize that this disorder does not define the people that have it.

What is BPD?

“Borderline Personality Disorder is the result of physiological and chemical disturbances in certain pathways in the brain that control specific brain functions. About one of every 33 women and one of every 100 men suffer from the disorder.” – Borderline Personality Disorder Demystified By Robert O. Friedel, MD 

The four main groups of behavioral disturbances in borderline disorder are:

  1. Poorly regulated emotions
    • Poorly regulated emotions just means you may overreact emotionally or sometimes your responses may seem blander than the responses one would anticipate from the average person.
  2. Impulsivity
    • The tendency toward impulsive, self-damaging behavior is so common and so strong in people with BPD that some experts in the field consider it the MOST important problem in the disorder.
    • Impulsive behavior: binge eating, spending money recklessly, uncontrolled gambling, excessive drinking and drug abuse, sexual promiscuity, and violent, aggressive acts.
  3. Impaired perception
    • Difficulty with memory, especially under stress.
    • Misperceive experiences: expecting worse from others, even when nothing negative is intended.
    • Paranoid thinking
    • Unstable Self-Image or Sense of Self
  4. Markedly disturbed relationships
    • A black and white life: polarized thinking
    • Frantic efforts avoid real or imagined abandonment

Poorly regulated emotions just means you may overreact emotionally or sometimes your responses may seem blander than the responses one would anticipate from the average person.

*See a doctor and do not assume or diagnosis yourself with BPD

*All information for this page comes from the novel Borderline Personality Disorder Demystified By Robert O. Friedel, MD 



BIPOLAR DISORDER TYPE II 

Bipolar Disorder is one disorder that is widely known but also misunderstood. So lets just start with a simple definition:


Bipolar disorder is a mental illness that causes dramatic shifts in a person’s mood, energy and ability to think clearly. People with bipolar experience high and low moods-known as mania and depression-which differ from the typical ups-and-downs most people experience.

*www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-Conditions/Bipolar-Disorder

This disorder can sometimes evoke feelings of fear or extreme sympathy from people once they learn that I live with this disorder. But I don’t need any of those feelings. This disease does not make me violent or crazy. It’s just one aspect of me. I believe everyone should continue to educate themselves on this disorder and illness so we can end all stigmas regarding it.

Do not get me wrong, there will be days when this illness will put me on my ass. But those are the days when I will fight the hardest to continue to be me.